Sitting in a guest house, rewinding the days of fun, excitement, of love and emotions; I felt like a very hollow feeling passing under me. Heard a lot in Bollywood movies that the heart really feels heavy sometimes… and I am feeling that way. I never knew drops of water oozing out from somewhere accompany this heavy heart!

While looking out for fellow bloggers, I found someone writing that she won’t at all miss her college life anymore as she got a good job now and her parents’ and her own dreams are upon fulfillment. Her college gave nothing in particular to her and it was just her own self determination and devotion that she is achieving something at the end of 4 years.

I somehow agreed to her but the next moment filled her web-space with a good sized lecture on college days. Here is an excerpt from that!

…where were we? Yes the guest house! Getting a job is a dream woven through since childhood. The realms of that only changes with time. I started with the stars (as almost 95% of “normal” children do!). I dreamt to be a rocket scientist and started reading about NASA and there starts my first self styled experiment. Looking at the stars and the prized glimpse of a shooting star… wow! J

A few months down the line, I got into a new passion – to become a “doctor”! I even wrote in the slam books about that! Somehow I felt there is an interconnection between this new found dream of mine and my parents’ aspirations. Biology sucks my hormones, so does the algebraic confusing numbers, but both handcuffed me till my 12th!

…yes the Guest house again! I am here jotting down some J and some L days of my life! I am in such a point in life where both dreams and reality are omnipresent. It’s a time when you leave all your friends, your college, your place, love, roommates and yes the dreams too. Getting into the first job is one of the most joyous moments of life and starting from the Dream Job of thousands is like getting the gem. But; there comes this “but”… till the last month in college, it was all but aim; now its reality and it hurts to find none near you. It was fun and overexcited moments with beer and friends nearby – just a month back – and now it’s the new responsibility. A few months back filling the examination form was a “tensed” situation; now filling the Provident Fund forms and making out the names of the nominees is much more different – if not over-boiled!

“…Come out of college achieving something son…” was parents’ voice. Achieved! Yes some great friends and some moments that will be cherished for life – if it doesn’t end up here! Classes were fixed but looked flexible. Eyes on the blackboard and the mind going for a roller-coaster ride off to the canteen and then to some dreamland; is a distant reality now. I want to board the first flight that takes the ‘U-Turn’; none seen now; but will definitely give life a second chance! Will take the BIG ‘U’ once I reach 60!

…Yes guest house! To share the least; I am amongst a new set of people now. All my college exams will seem to be just jokes as real life’s test is round the corner. Take a nap and get back to work – the formula might not work – it’s not the old days of copy-pasted research! Yes, I am a Copy Editor in The Times of India now… but something still pinch me… it hurts now and with time it won’t. Something still is hollow… something vacant – if not vacuum – and something that says… I miss my College Days… again and again…

Life is really a Purple experience… Life is really Royal in itself! If you are in college; enjoy the most and do something that you will be proud of for the whole life. Make friends… break some rules… get a small fight J… make yourself laugh and with that remember your parents… Enjoy Dreaming…